Keeping One's Nerve

It's one of those times after a change in the modus operandi when you catch yourself worrying about things as you would have done before the change. In this instance I'm worrying about not being efficient or agrressive enough about the gallery and the art fair, and then it takes me a few moments to get back into the new mode, which is to pull back from them a bit and stay focused on my own work. My previous sources of income are now eliminated: apartment rental income & landscape design income. But I still want to see if I can make a go of it as an artist.

I do take responsibility for a lot of intangibles, such as contributing to the general flavor of life around here. I'm aware that my attitudes and preferences often make or break seeing opportunities, following up on possibilities, staying focused, or being scattered, all of which have an impact on Steve and his own work. We are a team, even when we are working separately, picking up on one another's unspoken inclinations. During times like these it is important that I stay focused and strong and clear and minimally ambivalent about what I want and what is most important. Crumpling into worrying and dithering isn't going to do either one of us any good. Onwards and upwards!